Yes I have I’m afraid to say.
Real life commitments plus not really having much to say due to my lack of enthsiasm to gaming, blogging and making videos has mean’t that I’ve let everything slip.
I really cannot point to one particular reason as to why but I do know some ‘internet’ and ‘gaming’ friends have all gone through exactly the same problem as me.
Like most ‘gamers’ when you start on this voyage it’s very exciting and you are heading off into the unknown. How will people react to what I want to say? How will your youtube channel grow and will it become a success? How well can you take critisism from your fellow gamers and react to it but more importantly……… will you enjoy it?
I did but then it all became a chore so that’s why I stopped.
Did I put myself under pressure? Absolutely not. I started my youtube channel with no expectations, I certainly wasn’t looking for a partnership and I thought if I get 1000 views and 10 subscribers I would be happy with that. I surpassed that and yes I am very happy with the way the channel has grown (although currently there is no growth at all in respect of subscribers) *mental note to self……put videos up to keep your subscribers happy but apart from that making videos is a long process, at least for me it is and the fun went.
I’ve had major issues with my audio commenteries and I still have the same issue but I am trying to work around this.
I will make a decision on whether or not I am carry on with it but I do feel a loyalty to a vast majority of my sub base as they are long standing. I won’t go into too much details about my channel now as I want to save that for another post and now isn’t the time so we’ll leave that there.
I started this site to brand ‘Dvotee’ and I guess I still would like to accomplish that. I do feel I have a lot to offer the gaming community be it visual or my written rants etc I just have to want to do it.
I hardly say much on Twitter, I closed my Facebook down (which has now been reinstated and can be found here) and whilst I was never a ‘big name’ within the community, people got to know me and a lot of friendships were forged. These friendships have also slipped and for that, if any of you actually read this I apologise. Even if we don’t all game as much as we did, there is no excuse for that.
So let’s look at why I am now posting, some 5 odd months since my last post. I am going to make an effort to get back to blogging, to posting videos and to interact with everyone I have had to good fortune to meet.
I still don’t have the enthusiasm I had 2 years ago but I’m hoping that if can post a few more videos that enthusiasm will return. It will include World of Warcraft, other pc games my rig can handle plus of course the consoles and over here try to offer various aspects of what I feel about games, be it good or bad.
I know the dislikes will continue, you never lose your trolls but hey lets put all that behind us and move forward. I may even look at reacquating myself with some people from the past and bolster who I follow, interact with and see what happens from there on in.
Hope to see you all on the Battlefield (so to speak – haha!!)